"Ambition"

"Ambition"

Fear hides behind my heart in the darkness

Not allowing it to fully grasp my heart or mind

In fear that fear itself will crush my hopes and dreams

But in pushing forward fear will always lag behind

Weird dream

Last night I had a weird dream. I can't remember the beginning but I was in some HUGE building. . . like a high school but 10x's bigger. It also had a movie theater.

I'm not sure why but there were huge animals roaming the halls. The animals weren't mean but they were big and none of the animals were recognizable as real but they could have been prehistoric.

I don't remember the exact progression but I ran into a couple that I grew up with since I was a child. Sherrie and Dave's daughter, Kate, was a childhood friend. I ran into them at the front of a movie theater. I could see the food counters and it was pretty packed. We were talking when all of a sudden we see some person flying through the air. and we see something green and tentacle like shoot out and grab another person. Fear shot through me but so did that feeling of nails on a chalkboard.

Sherrie said, "I don't want to be near here." And started to take off up some stairs but the stairs just lead us up and then down in practically the same spot. People were rushing to get away too. We ran and I remember kicking out a plastic square of a dividing wall so we could just get to the other side. It was all rushed in my dream. I called my parents and ended up finding them and some other people from my parent's church. We all ran up and found some secluded room that seemed safe.

We stayed in that room for awhile. It had a bathroom and running water. There was a group of people in that room who were from Africa and played the bongo drums and danced. I remember the night before we left the room they started to play the drums and dance. We all joined in.

The next day we packed up all our things. I don't know how we knew the monster was gone. We never fully saw it and we never heard anyone tell us it was gone. I packed up my backpack which was abnormally large. I packed up a My Little Pony cup, some disney toys, and other childish trinkets.

I don't remember what happened right after that but it then switched to a movie theater. . . the same one that the dream started out in. I ran into my friend Aubrey who was going to see some movie I didn't want to see. As I talked to her I looked up on the wall and there was poster of a new movie coming out. On the poster was the green monster with the long tentacles that had started the fear in my dream.

Jimmy

This is Jimmy, Iris' brother inlaw, who apparently will "out live" us all as Iris tells me. As the pugs brought me to Iris, Iris brought me to Jimmy. I love them all. Pugs, Iris, and Jimmy.

A month ago Jimmy gave me a beautiful bell from S. Korea. The story goes. . .

I'd planned on going to brunch with Iris and we met up a little before hand to chit chat. As we do. Jimmy came at 10:40 on the dot and walked us to the dinning room. We all ate and talked. It was a nice meal. On our way back Jimmy parted ways and headed to his place. Iris and I checked the post box and headed back to her place.

As I'm getting back to Iris' Jimmy comes up and hands me this beautiful bell (sorry for no pic). It looked like it was hanging between a gate (imagine a Japanese Tori). It was made out of some metal. . . brass maybe and it had a little hammer to ring the bell. The ring was the clearest I'd ever heard. On the bottom it had an inscription of "korea".

Jimmy told me that he'd been in the service and after WWII he'd gone back to S. Korea to pick up a group (I don't know military lingo. Sorry.) and some captain who'd stayed behind in Korea to help with trainings and other things in S. Korea. The men weren't allowed to go ashore but the Korean people came to them in little boats with trinkets to sell. He said that the bell was the only thing he bought. Jimmy told me that he wasn't sure to give it to in his older age and wondered if I wouldn't mind having it. If it didn't offend me (cute).

I was shocked and honored by this gift. It is in my window sill and when I get home I give it a little ring to remind me of my friends at the Towers and from where I was born.

Thanks Jimmy

Joy in "The Great State of Oregon"

Sunday I flew down to Sacramento/ Auburn to drive with my friend, Joy Barker, back up to Oregon. She came up to visit Monday-Thursday. Here are some pictures of our time at the coast.

Cheeeeeeeeese

Twin Rocks

Joy

seaweed

Hi, Brian

I have a crab

practicing yoga

got caught in the rain

Wet

Hair Again

I don't really like to style my hair just straight so I thought I'd post another one with my hair styled :)

Need for Change

I love that when you need to change something about yourself. . . your hair is always there to comply.

Yachats, A Happy Post

Here you go Kate. Here is your happy post. Love you.

Today, Kate and I went on an adventure in Yachats, OR. Some of you may not know where Yachats (pronounced "Yah Hots") is, well let me tell you, it's near Newport on the coast. Here are some photos from our adventure.

It was a beautiful drive over



A driving picture. . . my MO





Fishermen



Drift Inn



Crab Quesadilla and Fish/ Chips



Friends for almost 20 years. Crazy





Beautiful foggy coast



So. . . I loved this house and was about to take a picture of it when Kate said that there needed to be more pictures of me being taken. I went over to pose thinking she'd take a full shot. Nope. A nice close up :) Thanks Kate. J/k



Here's the house



More coast



Crazy "cactus" flowers



here is one blooming/ not dead



WHO KNEW!!!



"GEM of the Oregon Coast"





I know you can't tell but what they are actually swimming in is nasty polluted foamy water.



Kate



Many self portraits



The Sun



cool window house



Cool forest



Leaf Hat



Nymph House



Funny Story. . . Kate and I walked along the beach line and then crossed over the 101 to the forest reserve thingy. Well, the quickest way back was along the 101. . . so here we are hitchhiking(not really)back.




And what better way to finish a day at the beach. Tillamook Ice Cream.

"Heart We Will Forget Him"

"Heart We Will Forget Him"

Heart, we will forget him,
You and I, tonight!
You must forget the warmth he gave,
I will forget the light.

When you have done pray tell me,
Then I, my thoughts, will dim.
Haste! ‘lest while you’re lagging
I may remember him!

by Emily Dickinson